Selamat Hari Raya Maaf Zahir Dan Batin
maafkan i kalau pernah lukakan hati hancur kan perasaan you .

i know i always a bad girl please forgive me :(

My only wish for Shawal 2016 was to be with you during takbir and to have you again back in my life . Like how we used to ...

tapi semua tu tinggal kenangan je b .
Kite da tak boleh nak bersama lagi , mungkin itu terbaik utk u .
mungkin ni satu pelajaran untuk kite to move on with our own route and life ?

As much as i want to forget and leave u alone u know i cant .

Kalau tak i tk mcm ni .. Kadang i rasa mcm i ni psycho bual sorang2 dgn u
tah la but after this i definitely feel better ..
This is only way for me to fix my broken hard .
Blogging endlessly even if no one read it , but kalau u baca u call i k , i
nak bagitau you yang i rindu sangat kat you ..

I having trouble sleeping all night i think of you all the time i sampai mimpi2 you ,
you jumpe i , u hold my hands , i was crying endlessly coz its rather very sad and emotional .

Tsk ! i really hope we could meet and end this properly , i miss you so much reno ...

i have alot to tell to you ..
ive been thinking of what i should blog about because there's just too much to tell you ..

so bad or good news?

Lets start with the bad one okay ?  and end it with a good news ...

So the bad news ?

Okay , hmm how do i start ...

I send a massage to sab after quite some time .
i apologise to her and everything she dint replied me .
i assume die da tknak ada apa2 friendship dengan i , its just sad .

In her own words die rasa i buat pakai kan die ...
Mana i ada buat pakai die sey b .. haisss...

lepastu i tergerak hati  nak msg emiel , i dengan emiel okok la ..
kadang2 die pon macam tak nak layan i jgk haissss sebab drg rasa i ni mcm merepek
kot asik msg i , i down , sebab i rindu u .. dorang kata move - on but tell me how ?

Emiel ckp ngan i ,
" u shoudnt have put you boyfriend first before you friends "

it really pain me deep inside . . how could a person say like that too me .

i jumpe dorang per semua masa i dgn u .. mana boleh ckp mcm tu sey .

But time tu i da sot gile la senang ckp ...

Sebab dorang kawan i , after 6months i break up ngn u mana drg le ckp mcm tu
terpukul gile perasaan i . .. i dont deserve all  this shit....

My friend ckp i degil sebab i ikut kan perasaan sgt they clearly tell me
not to be with you coz they dont want me to get hurt . but i believe and thrusted you
so apa salah nya ?

Its my fault again ,

After that emie ckp Sab still cares about me .

Tell me if she cares tak kan die nak ckp macam tu kat i .
betul tak ?

so after all that i rasa depress semcm la of course ...
my mom and dad dorang tengah fikir nak buat chalet utk i coz im 21 .

Twentyone . hahah ..
yeah , can i have you as my present please"?
nothing just you ..

I told my parents tak ya la chalet2 ni semua .
i pon bukan nye ada kawan .
so drg mungkin buat BBQ je . tgk la apa drg plan i pon tkde mood nk celebrate bday i .


So moving forward ... Good News .

I running a small bis called NenupharsBlancs .

So basically the name NenupharsBlancs is actually a white Lily .
Which sab actually gave the name but since shit happens ,
i rather keep it..

So apart from that good news is im planning to grow NenupharsBlancs
insyallah this year im launching my own brand Shawls ..

Oh ya N.Blancs Basically jual Shawl MEANTIME la .

But end of this year, im launching my own shawls and jubah ,
From labelling . everything from scratch insyallah maju .
so far so good ... byk customer banyak posting ..
Kalau boleh by aidil adha' i da launch first Jubah . .
Dengan keizinan allah . insyallah .. .boleh ..
doakan i .....

i might consider to open small booth affordable ..
Saving definitely alot of things need to do actually ...
Actually it needs team work ..

But lets hope everything will be fine espciecially running everything alone ...


okay that all ..

i guess thats it for thee day :)